Today is the 20-month anniversary of Lorin’s death. I think about him every day, and light a candle for him every night. The passage of time has not altered my love for him or the depth of my sadness, and anger, that he has left this earth.
Lorin and I loved our many road trips together. He used to say he was “Driving Miss Sweetie” — Miss Sweetie being me.
We planned our music, audio books, snacks and drinks ahead of time. It was always an adventure.
On the drive home from Orlando after a long weekend, there was a delay on I-4 East due to a car accident. A fatal car accident.
In the past, I might have been annoyed at such a delay, but yesterday I felt differently.
I imagined how annoyed motorists must have been after our car accident on September 29, 2016. How they might have been complaining how they would be late for work or to take their kids to school that morning. I used to be one of those people.
Yesterday I felt profound sadness. Tears welled in my eyes as I thought of the life or lives that were lost on I-4. As we passed the mangled red SUV, I said a brief prayer for the deceased and his / her family.
Another lost soul on the American highway.
Another family, grief-stricken and traumatized.
I will never forget the beautiful person I lost on September 29, 2016. I am forever altered and still struggle to understand why only my cat Samson and I survived.
Perhaps someday it will all come clear. Until that day, I will do the best I can to make sense of it all and live another day.